I am covered in lists

Dragons, allergic to dairy, archery, photographs of misty days

Information I started collecting for the life

We will never have

Sometime with men I see on the highway

Dunkin Donuts, Kayaking, trips to Montana

In the moments we are driving

Side by side

Swinging, married like children

We have a whole life

Weightless and midair

How many lives have you lead of which you are

Unaware, you’ve played a part

Murdered or married in someone else mind

But I am always left lamenting these lists

I started the writing process of loving you

It was outlined

I picked out books you would like and I remember

How you like your hand held and your head scratched

Accidentally I make two cups of coffee

I’d bring it to you if I knew you at all

But you jumped off, drove away

Crossed out and erased me easily

I wasn’t written down anywhere on you

I was a receipt for something you drank quickly

Why do they give you receipts for coffee anyway?

Just crumple me up and throw me away